Im Off..For a while..

Dear readers n fans (ok, i know its very drama..)

I choose to remain silent over the next couple of months rather than post pathetic blogs that will years later remind me of how dramatic i am these days..

Further updates will be when i can operate my head n heart as per normal..

Just a special note for my hubby:
I miss you so the very much,hubby..
I'm waiting to be with you again, n praying endlessly that He will be kind enough to create some miracles..
Let's go back home to UAQ soon, where our hearts belong..
Love you lots..Eternally..

Dear Umm Al Quwain, Rainbow Towers, Sheikh Abdullah Building etc etc..
I wonder how I've got myself so attached to you just in the short time we were acquainted.. Im waiting to be in your land again, n i miss you truly n deeply..
I know I will cu again, just praying to God that it will be soon..
It's not for the money, nor the status.. Its something else.. Some pure sentiments n love that I cant begin to explain..
I believe God knows what it is, I believe He hears me cries, I believe He will be with us n show us the path..

God bless all..

Adieu for now,
Shubi

Its My Calling..N a miracle it is..

It's Thaipusam again..The one & utmost festival that our entire jing bang of a family look forward to evry year..even more than our birthdays & anniversaries, evn more than Diwali, Onam n whatever nots..

N over the years, we just get closer to Him who is the King of Batu Caves n our hearts..We all so look forward to the chariot procession n despite the mad crowd n some really mad personalities there, we all just love the day, His day..

Just the other day, dearest friend Sulo e-mailed me..just an excerpt of her mail n my reply to her:-

"Dear Shuba,How are you? I hope you are getting along fine in UAE. Its sooo long since I've last spoken to you........When will you be coming down to KL? Do let me know and we could meet up.........8th of February is Thaipusam and as usual.....I'm observing vegeterianism andwould be walking with the chariot. I really miss you.....remember we slept on the staircase in Chowkit......hehehehhehehehe..........Its so funny.....we had fun and at the same time fulfilled what we believed in....Last year I walked with some friends....it was so so boring....and i met your mum halfway.I went back to your hse with your family, had lunch and father sent me to the nearest bus stop. This year I would be walking with my brother....so i guess it wouldn'tbe so bad.....Please do tell me your experiences in UAE and hope life treats you well!!!!!Take care and God Bless.....and Keep in touch!!!Yours truly,Sulocana"

And my reply:-

(...con't) ..N don't remind me abt thaipusam..Its all so hurting to be so damn faraway n God knows how it feels to be in a place with no temples, no culture n no nothing..Yucks.. Hmm, but its all happening for a purpose & I also believe that you can pray n praise Him anywhre, He'll be thre to listen.. So dats how life's goin on here..

To make me feel worse, Thaipusam happens to fall on a sunday, so there'd be hardly any need to fight wt my ex-boss to get some days off (hehe..).. but i knew sulo..I swear i knew.. remember the year we walked together? I somehow knew that it'd be a long time before i walk in that holy procession again..If u remember, I cried my heart out when they were bringing Him into the temple (somehow, i end up crying evry year..dono y..thre's some strong vibration thre that just makes me pour..but then, i cried even more on that particular year 2007- i swear wen i looked at Him, He told me.. "Look at Me and revel in my glory as much as u want,ma..It may be a long time before you see Me in all this glory again..") U knw how heavy my heart was wen i walked away? I rmbr being so angry at Him, thinking dat He is pushing me away, He doesnt want me..dat kinda thing..

Bt sure enaf, i got married end of that year n the dumb people in my fmly said newly-married couples shouldnt walk wt chariot (n i dono y the heck did i listen to such utter rubbish).. n this year, i can't even watch Him on the news.. How so painful..N the worst n the one thing that i can't compromise in my marriage wt my husband is the fact that he wants to spend thaipusam in ipoh evry year n i cant think abt spending it anywhere other than Bt Caves..
Despite the maddening crowd n the way they commercialize the whole affair n evry crap happening thre, let me tell u.. dats whre He lives.. n u can sense it the moment u walk into His territory, u can know it deep in yr soul..Dats whre His home is n that's whre He lives..

Im glad to hear that yr bro is following u this year.. Always feel excited wen a new person joins the procession..Its a wonderful feeling to share n preach His greatness & glory wt another person..Hmm, people will thnk im talking abt a great hunk,but he is a great hunk alright..
Got a remedy for u to beat boredom..Just walk beside the chariot n sing His hymns n songs n chant His name..U'll be surprised that u hardly feel anythng else but peace n serenity.. I've done that many times..

Well,im obsessed wt Lord Murugan n nobody can change that..Hehehe..

N n n..of course i rmbr the whole journey wt u and veni..evrytime i pass jln raja laut,i'd tell hubby abt it.so much so dat if i dont open my mouth, he looks at me n tells me..haha.. beautiful n wonderful memories..

ok then dear..i thnk i've done too much of talking n preaching..u too tc n hv a great year ahead..
n pls do keep in touch. im not too keen on losing contact wt fantastic frens like u n moreover, we have already lost contact for a while aft u left jusco n i do not intend to walk that path again..

miss ya,tc n God bless.. With Regards,Suba

Now, dat email was sent out on the 21st Jan 09, n by no means did i ever imagine that He has made a way for me to be there.. To revel in all His glory..

If this isn't a miracle, then I seriously dont know what is..

My Hunk, this post is entirely for You and YOU only..

*Muruga Saranam*

How this?

Ok, there are some changes of plan and so we are heading back to Malaysia tomorrow, and that's after the longest gap ever in my life w'o me having seen my whole family (5 months 5 days precisely..)..

N it was all so sudden, i knew only yesterday that i need to go back, n i booked our tickets within 2 hours of receiving the news from one of my Directors and i'm leaving within 72 hours of notice and it's just the time i wana be home so badly (that's a diffren post entirely..)..

I'm supposed to be jumping around in joy..
Instead, im feeling all gloomy & depressed..
N im crying to go back..

How this? How this?